I wanted it all at once and I'm so glad I was wrong

It is officially my favorite time of the year - when I put my duck boots on and walk around the garden, enjoying the early bulbs and new growth as I make plans for the yearly refresh. It’s no mystery why I instantly loved “With Love, Meghan” - it was like connecting with the dream we had when we bought this house three years ago - a dream for a slow life with our family, something comfortable and joyful but yet expansive. (And if you know me, you will also know I want it to look and feel beautiful.)

The dream didn’t just imagine a lifestyle - it also came with a very 3D vision of the house and garden. Three years later, we aren’t quite there but we are also not even close to where we started. If you told me then just how long it would take I would have been more than a little annoyed - I like things to move and I really love my quantum leaps. Yet, now, I’m so grateful I didn't get what I wanted as fast as I wanted it, and here is why:

Time and action have deepened my clarity about what I want - out of my home, my personal life, my work. It’s like this slow, but sure, rhythm of doing what I can, when I can, not only creates my most aligned path but lights up the next step along the way. 

It makes so much sense - In between there and here there were things I needed to learn how to do, beliefs about myself and what I can expect that required changing, and little lessons that sparked more than a few light bulb moments. Along the way I also have become more myself, which is what we can, and should, expect in all of our chapters as we go through this life.

Through it all I am continually reminded that there is so much magic in finding the ways we are empowered to bring our dreams and desires into the here and now. It turns out I don’t have to actually wait for the dream to fully realize in order to enjoy the ingredients it’s made of, and neither do you. It’s so easy to think we want the thing itself - the new business, the new house, a big promotion, the new relationship - but what we really want is how it makes us feel or what it gives us permission to do. And every time I’ve looked more closely, these feelings and experiences are often available to me now, they just maybe look a little different in this current version of us.  

So many times we wait for something in our environment to change before we let ourselves feel and act differently, but the (not-so-secret) secret is that it works entirely the other way around.

Reflections: 

• Where in your life are you living what your past self wished for? Take a moment to soak in the gratitude for all that is already here. 
• Go ahead and write down three things you are actively calling into your life. For each, list out the reasons why you want it - what does it bring you, how does it make you feel, what do you get to do differently?
• From this list, look and see what is possible now, even if it looks a little different from how you first imagined it. Identify all the ways you are empowered to bring the ingredients of this dream to life now.